Heart's Crescendo

Ach.

Note to self: wisdom teeth removal surgery is most unpleasant.

I have zip feeling in my lower lip. It feels like a rather large slug that an idiot taped to my face while I was under. Heavy - but dry. Really dry. And detached. I'm still numb from my lip, to my chin, up my jaw bones to my ears. Not fun. Every so often the taste of the medicated gauze gets to me, filling my mouth like the scent of bad Christmas candy that a kindly old auntie gives to you with good intentions but full knowledge that likely as not it's about three years old - and that the only time people ever gagged it down when it WASN'T expired was as a remedy during a terrible disease in the 1920's. I'll admit, it tastes much better than blood. Blood is terribly unpleasant. It doesn't mix well with banana pudding, Keep that in mind, OK? Blood + bananas = yick.

The stitches are a little much. Sure they dissolve. But they are also THERE for now, so I can feel them. And they're really, really gross.

I am so tired. At the office, they literally put my IV in my elbow and I heard them say "let's give her 3". And then I was gone. Leaden limbs immediately, and then a total blackness. It was rather nice. They could have kept me under, lol.

Now I've leaden lids. And quite the numbness going on. A little pain, yes - I took some BIG TIME drugs, though, I mean, MAJOR things. So... I'm OK I guess.

I've been watching Red vs Blue, 1 & 4, and now Aquamarine. (Yes, Aquamarine, it was one of the only things on, you know,) It's typical Disney sap-fest, but I like that sorta thing - some days. Like Firehouse Dog yesterday -  lame movie, but well, I made it through it just fine, probably greatly aided and abetted by the warm strength of the man by my side. He - just makes everything so nice. Including that he's built like a -

OK, sorry. The squeamish should now cover their ears. OK, eyes.

This tapered little waist to him - not little, I guess, but narrow - then very lightly muscled, thin abs - and sturdy, nice ribs - into these solid, broad, substantial, thick, awesome awesome awesome shoulders. Lord. They're so nice. I go crazy for them. And the arms - gosh. Thin enough I guess, but with these nice sharp bicep muscles... wow.

END DISTURBING.

I'm kind of drifting. 

Much love everyone.

~*Riley