Heart's Crescendo

I'm so tired.

Well, I got my permit today. Finally. Twenty years later... *sigh*. But, it's not such a horrible photo, considering, and aside from my signature looking like a four year old's, I'm happy with it. I might go drive around in the field at random in a little while.

Well, since I last posted I got on the Points system. I don't actually know how much weight I've lost (our scale's batteries are dead) but I have lost some... you can see it through the face. I've also tanned a lot, considering. I got a new bathing suit, which I adore - it's brown with turquoise, fuschia, and gilt tropical floral patterns. There's ruching on the stomach, a short swimskirt, and a halter neck, in addition to good chest support... LOL. It's cute. I've wanted it for a long time, but by the time it had gone on sale they no longer has my size. So it's two sizes bigger than my normal, but that's OK - my grandma fixed it. 

I got a bunch of new clothes, actually - two peasant-material tank tops in red, black, and white; a sleeveless red and white polka dot number; a red faux-t-shirt-hoodie with butterflies on it; and a black and white striped halter top. Oh, and a new pair of shorts, which were badly needed. But... yeah.

I marked Bob off my list of potential targets along with Josh. Adios fellas. I forgot how much of an arse Bob is. I knew how much of an arse Josh was but chose to ignore it and, now free of his company, am doing much better... LOL.

I refuse to give up on some people.

I finished Twilight Princess, and I swear a part of me died. It was so depressing. Midna turned out not only to be *spoiler alert* the sarcastic, demanding, witty Twilight Princess, but also drop-dead gorgeous in that anime sort of way. (She was like seven or eight feet tall,  with green-blue skin and red gold hair and eyes... pretty, well anyway...) Link was beasty. Shad, Shad was the geeky dude, and he was just downright sexy for an animated character... LOL.

To ease the pain, I picked up guitar. I can pluck out Gerudo Interlude, Zelda's Lullaby, Serenade of Water, Hoist the Colours, the intro of "Last Child", and a few other things... but my best is Song of Storms... I played around with my own melody this morning... I really like guitar. For all I've idolized it and those who can play it for so long, it's just as comfortable in my own hands. Yesterday Alex let me play his gorgeous marblized pearlized green electric with the marblized pearlized white pick guard.... O.M.G. Love at first pluck. He plugged it into an amp and put distortion on while I picked out Song of Storms and Gerudo Interlude. Gorgeous. I think, in that moment, I fell in love. 

If I keep up playing, my parents said I might get a new guitar for Christmas. The one I have now is a 35+ year old acoustic steel string with a nick in the fretboard and some paint missing in places. The pick guard is nicked a few places... It's a nice guitar, but old... I have trouble getting it to stay in tune. Plus I don't have any of that fancy, shmancy tuning equipment and am relegated to using a keyboard (that's also horribly out of tune) and my ears to tune. And the steel strings are getting a little old.... pain, much??

That one Alex let me try yesterday was WONDERFUL. It fit right to my hand and had gorgeous quality. He doesn't even play it; he by and large prefers his boring, black Kramer (which DOES have a very nice sound to it, I must say). He also recently came into possession of a GORGEOUS cobalt four-string bass <3 by way of pawn shop. It's wonderful.

I think the one he let me play was a Gibson... I hitherto didn't care for Gibson, but I might change my mind. I like the look of Epiphones, and they're cheap, but...

Ah, learn to strum a little more on the one I have first, I suppose.

I've got to wrap Caiti & Amanda's stuff. I got them both earrings and keychains - I think they're pretty, LOL. And I have to get Vivian's gift to her... AND I have to take the polish off my nails and repaint them. They look horrible. Besides, I might like having manicured red-orange talons sliding up and down the frets of my g-tar. At any rate they need done before the party.

I leave for Ireland Monday... that hasn't really sunk in just yet. Not at all. I'm too busy thinking about working outside and random parties and playing guitar and my KITTENS <33333.

Ah yes, let's talk about my little balls of fluff.

First there's Carson, who I talk about first because he's the least interesting. Carson is very fat and likes to eat. And eat. And then come over a minute to see you before retiring. Not the most sociable kitty ever. He's still sweet though.

Second, Sid Vicious, who's my baby. I yanked him out from beneath the trailer, I bore his scratches, I coaxed the little thing out into the open, I grabbed him up to pet him daily, and I worked at it. He loves me. He'll crawl over to me and lay down by my leg. If I pick him up and set him on my lap, he'll lay down there and go to sleep. I just love him. He has the softest fur of all time, and the prettiest face. He does not look like any of his siblings. His eyes are huge and blue-green-amber, and he has funny looking ears and huge paws. I adore Sid.

Third, Mr. Tyler, who I also adore. Mr. Tyler is cute, cute, CUTE, and friendly like Ren, but much more scared. He likes my singing the best (and none of our animals has EVER been able to STAND my singing before now) and will go right to sleep with a little "Vincent." He's charming. I just love him!

Fourth is Ren... LOL. We all love Ren, and Ren loves all of us. Ren is fiery, friendly, outgoing, loves people, a climber, and brave. He's tiny compared to the rest and rather ugly. Well... not to us. To us he's the cutest thing in the world. He, like his brothers, has HUGE blue eyes. He often walks sideways, like a crab, and stumbles about. He will fight anything, never gives up, and will climb up on and lay on whoever is handy. He can get a little territorial, too - when he climbs up on your lap, he gets mad if one of the other kittens does the same. LOL.

But Ireland...

I can't imagine it.

I best go.

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